Finding who we are, again!
Hello my Magical Witchy Friends,
We are in the first week of Mercury Retrograde and boy I am holding on to the proverbial ledge. Going through the normal insecurities and inner demons. Feelings of struggle with my business and trying to keep on trusting the process. Also feelings of giving up, which is normal for me during any retrograde cycle. New mom struggles and learning how to do the things I love and want to do but also having a toddler at my heals almost constantly. It’s been a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts.
Also, I wanted to admit to getting help from AI lately with my website. To be honest it has been a lifesaver with being a busy SAHM. To be honest my grammer and spelling is atrocious and I am often very embarassed by it, so I used the built in AI tool to help me with this issue. But I found out recently that when we use AI, for anything, our websites actually get pushed back and further into the recesses of the internet search engines. SMH! So I will be more authentic from here on out, please be kind if you are a grammer nerd. I wish I was too! lol!
Finding who we are again!
First and foremost, let me be the first to tell you…YOU CAN START OVER at any time in your life. And as many times as you need to! I have definitely restarted my life many times.
You do not need to have it together all the time or by any particular age. I normally go through these moments every five to ten years. Funny enough the two most major events that drove
me to restart and find myself again happened around the normal 5-10 year mark. Losing my father happened when I was 35. I completely lost myself and all that was ME. Grief was hard and I gave up on life. It was a horrible time for me, we ended up losing the apartment we lived in, I couldn’t get myself to go back to work and this was the main cause of this. My husband (we weren’t married yet) couldn’t afford the rent and bills with his job only and we were kicked out after just a few months of being back. We zig zagged around, crashing on couches, borrowing from friends and finally landed an apartment in California with roommates. I got a job at target and slowly started to come back to life.
To be honest I hated where we lived. California is nice to visit but it was not for me, I guess I can partly blame my grief (I hated everything for a long time), but a lot of it had to do with our pretty toxic roomates. So this was a big moment for me to find myself again and my new norm. Little by little I found things I loved again, I started to work with my Witchcraft againg and believing in myself again.
The second time this happened to me was more recent, when I had my daughter I just turned 40 and already going through the normal “holy poop” I’m 40 feels. These past two years I have been slowly working back into myself. Working through post partum, being a new mom, starting my brand and starting a blog again. Finding myself has been both a obstacle filled course and easy choices. But I am here to tell you that if you keep going, if you don’t give up, if you belive that you can find the light at the end of the tunnel, good things will happen. And yes, you will find yourself again!
