Something I am terrified of other people knowing about me
Hello my friends,
Happy Tuesday we are now in the second half of Mercury Retrograde, now unfolding in the intense and transformative sign of Scorpio. This phase invites deep introspection, urging us to confront hidden truths and embrace emotional clarity beneath the surface. Communication may feel more charged, and secrets can rise to the forefront, offering opportunities for profound healing and realignment. Approach this period with patience and a discerning mind, allowing the undercurrents of Scorpio to guide you through necessary endings and powerful new beginnings.
This retrograde is serving as a profound catalyst for healing, allowing me to deeply reassess and strengthen my confidence, self-worth, and the dynamics of my relationships. By revisiting the past with clarity and compassion, I am able to release old patterns and forgive wounds that have long hindered my growth. In the present, this reflective energy empowers me to set healthier boundaries and embrace my true value unapologetically. Looking toward the future, the insights gained during this period illuminate the path for the kind of connections I truly desire—rooted in authenticity, respect, and mutual support—creating a foundation for lasting emotional fulfillment.
I’ve been reflecting deeply on the boundaries I’ve allowed others to cross and the parts of myself I’ve been terrified to reveal. It’s been a journey confronting the ways I’ve been judged and rejected, and, more importantly, acknowledging the role I’ve played in those experiences. Owning my truths—flaws, fears, and all—is the first step toward reclaiming my power and embracing the unapologetic authenticity I’ve long suppressed. In this space of honesty, I find the courage to heal, grow, and rewrite the narrative I’ve been living under.
Owning the parts of yourself that feel icky or uncomfortable is a profound act of self-acceptance and empowerment. When you give yourself permission to embrace those flawed, messy, or unconventional aspects, you step into a space of radical authenticity that few dare to enter. This courageous acknowledgment not only lightens your inner burden but also makes you irresistibly inspiring and magnetic to others. People resonate deeply with genuine vulnerability because it reflects the complex, imperfect beauty of being human. In embracing your shadows, you illuminate a path for others to do the same, fostering connection and healing on a deeply transformative level.
The biggest lie I have told myself, and the deepest fear I have concealed from others, has undeniably shaped much of my past. I convinced myself that vulnerability was weakness, masking my true emotions behind a facade of strength and control. This silent fear of being genuinely seen and understood kept me isolated, trapped within my own walls. It was only when I began to confront and embrace that hidden truth that I unlocked a transformative path toward healing and authenticity, allowing me to live more fully.
Ready for my biggest truth and fear to admit? Well, as most know, I have a pretty famous father—he revolutionized the music industry from the ’70s through the early 2000s. I grew up surrounded by wealth and influence, a life many would envy, with a silver spoon seemingly forever in hand. But behind the glamour and prestige, no one saw the mental deterioration I silently endured. The pressures, expectations, and the shadow cast by such a towering legacy created an internal battle far more harrowing than the public ever imagined.
No one saw that I was taught to only be as good as the wealthy husband who would take care of me. I was never allowed to want to make my own way, have my own dreams, or build my own business. This limitation compounded with the narcissistic upbringing by my mother, where my worth was measured solely by my obedience and subservience. From an early age, I internalized the belief that I was not good enough to even be myself, stifling my identity and silencing my potential. It was a painful lesson in invisibility and imposed insufficiency, one that I have since worked to unlearn and transform.
I was bullied my entire life for coming from a wealthy family—by kids at school, coworkers, and even managers. Their assumptions about my privilege overshadowed any recognition of my individual effort or character. I found myself constantly striving to prove that I was more than the circumstances of my birth, that my worth was defined not by my background but by my integrity, resilience, and capabilities. This relentless pursuit of validation became both a burden and a catalyst, shaping my journey toward self-empowerment and authenticity.
The necessity of proving my worth was an unrelenting burden, a silent demand to demonstrate that I was more than just an heiress to a fortune I neither chose nor defined me. I had to constantly unravel fragments of my story, carefully selected and strategically shared, to convince others I was “normal,” that my value extended beyond inherited wealth. Each narrative was a silent act of resistance—proof that behind the privilege lay complexity, resilience, and humanity. It was not simply about acceptance; it was about reclaiming my identity from the assumptions others imposed, proving that my essence was my own and deserving of respect on its own terms.
I am tired of hiding who I am and where I came from, weary of the exhausting effort to prove my worth to anyone who doubts me. No longer will I accept the narrative that suffering is my only path or that my past defines my potential. I refuse to believe that my origins limit my ability to help others or guide them toward better lives. I am reclaiming my power and embracing the truth that success is not bound by circumstance but forged through resilience, authenticity, and the unwavering faith in my own journey.
So if you are going through this during your retrograde, know that you are not alone. Retrogrades often bring intensified moments of reflection and realignment, urging us to confront old patterns and rewrite our personal stories. We are all changing our narratives for the better, embracing growth and transformation even when the process feels challenging. Trust that this period is a powerful invitation to shed outdated beliefs and step into a more authentic version of yourself.
Love and great big hugs,
Rebecca
